I Am Somebody

No one has remembered you.

I remember.

Yet I try to forget.

I hide the fact that you existed.

And now I hurt more deeply than ever.

There tears barely come.

In every mirror I see you in my eyes.

I see you in my cheek bones.

I see you in my smile.

Yet I cannot smile.

It’s too much to bare.

Without you daddy, it’s too much.

It cannot be your birthday.

How do I call you?

I sit numb

Like the ocean tide wiping away your memories.

I’m alone.

I’m empty.

I haven’t cried in over a week.

You’re not here.

You never were.

And I’m so angry.

Redness overwhelmed with hurt.

All that is seen is the darkness of survival.

All I see is the vain existence in life.

What is worth living if you are not here?

What is worth seeing if I cannot share it with you?

Who am I without you?

I’m a daughter lost at sea.

Where is your hand?

Life

Torn away from those you loved most deeply.

Alone in the hurricane.

Without a rope

Without a hope

With only the hope that I can do this.
I do this for you daddy.

I survive for you.

If not for who would I be.

I would be a nobody.

I am a somebody because of you!